It's the smiling on the package It's the faces in the sand It's the thought that moves you upwards Embracing me with two hands

Wednesday, May 20

sad

theres photographic evidence of the last thing i want to see




fuck him


literally hate myself right now


not seen the massive dick in ages

not rating seeing him aat all





fuck fuck fuck fuck this

Tuesday, May 19

the cold

my hands can barely move

typing it much easier then writing though

this it the reasoning for not completing a maths paper even though i have an exam tomorrow



my bulimia is progressing at an alarming rate

sometimes i physically feel everything i eat must be vommed back up



barrrrrrr sugar puffs

i love god damn sugar puffs



i would love to live of a bowl of sugar puffs alone


magiccccccccccccc


im currently downloading the entire jigga back catalogue.
love him love him

i decided to become a whore. it works for the rest of my friends. being whorey and skanky. i need sex. i miss sex. it shouldnt be this hard for the young.


current obsession with platting my hair

it looks like a nest of dreams to be fairrrr,,

all boys must be gay


thinner then i have been in a while llikeee


gonna vom some more


hi ho.

Friday, May 15

howls moving castle

watched it to cheer me up to be fair it didnt work

with the epic depressing rain and freezing temperatures

im not aloud to put the heating on as its may

logical in these recesive times


staying in and wallowing

sarah silverman and my sister ffor company



could be worse.



rilo kiley speaks the truth . god bless jenny

i want it to be like last year again, i was much happier then


hi ho

how are you doing in economics


I had to look after my little sister for a mere hour today
and i soon realised i could never be a mother
i dont know why i bother eating at the moment
i always end up voming it up in the toilets later
wallow for a little bit then ignore my hunger for the rest of the day.
im trying to ignore him and forget his existance, but i cant help my need to be funny and interesting when he is in sight.
my battle to be thinner then her is won, has been from the start.
i want to go out tonight.
but everytime i do it drives my mum futher away from me.
its scary how she can effect every decision i make.
my friend should be picking me up soon, for a drive.
i cant stand being in a car with her.
if she sings or raps.
she thinks she is better then me
probably is but im more individual and she cant stand that
her pretention is what makes me hate her most.
i knew her when she was as plain as 'her'.
now she likes the smiths and considers her self unique.
when there is 10000000 people out there like her and when she goes to uni she will see this
until then i will have to put up with it
hi ho

Thursday, May 14

hungry

i love jay-z

he is my actual hero



i mean im not the typical hip hop fan

i mostly like the early 90's era to be fair


it shocks most people when i tell them



i wish i found more people interesting
i hate it when my friend starts talking to people when were out
i could never be like that
she sees no problem in her overly friendly ways
and she really pisses me off when i confront her about anything
she gets defensive like i dont have the right to say anything




i hate him i hate him i hate him


hi ho

bordem and the need to vent

Im trying to revise,,

watching tv instead

no surprises there. ive seen this episode of the hills twenty times but it makes no difference

i like to relate it to my life, and i can.
but my one relationship which has caused me to become bitter before my time is something i shouldnt be thinking about

im making myself sick and i have no reason to
im happy with my weight

but im so fucked up i seeme to think if im thinner then her i am therefore better then her ##

this is infact not true, she probably is better then me.

i constantly call her plain, but whats wrong with that

we dont all need to be wonderous crazy people

im starting to think there was only one person in the entire world who found me attractive

and hes a dick





but what man isnt


im trying to put all my effort into exams

i want A's

want to go to uni and become an accountant

orrr work in american apparel

orr open a christian book shop

im not religious but i think it would be fun



hi ho