evil

IM A VEGAN NOW

he broke up with me, well just ended whatever we had


i call him my ex, but i dont think it really can be in that catigory


my veganism is nothing to do with the above


more to do with my weight obsession



i want to be thin as the olsens

mary kate yupp



im a lot happier i think, i dont feel the need to be with anyone

which is all girls my age seeme to think about these days.



im listening to interpol, its reminding me of the old days. well a mere few months ago



ive slept with three people, i feel like thats a bad amount.

i dont like to think of it.

but my younger friends are a lot worse



me and mum are okay

me and my sisters are alright

i hate my best friend

i love my other friends


hi ho

Shave

im a sneaky little bitch.

i have no respect for any person other then myself

i look like a fucking lesser

to quote my mother after i came home with a partially shaven head


i enjoy the fucking thing greatly, i HATE being boring
with the short pixie cut its basically thattt

now i feel betterrrr


im glad i did it.


now i have to sit in my room all night every night as my mother can not look at me
and my sister is disgusted by my face

i want to move away
so far awayyy

but its an impossible wish

Neglect

I have neglected you so much my blog,

i guess its here when i need it.

ventventvent

I read the diary of a 17 year old boy on platform
and felt the need to be like him

express my thoughts and feelings to an audience
but in my case the audience is just me


So im alot better than i was a few months ago
its all down to him
he is new, older, better then most ive met
and im hypnotized by his hair

hes far away though, quite the distance
and i said to myself i wouldnt get to attached
but i think im a liar

over it

i have braces now

just what i need


insecure girl to be made more insecure by these large unattractive pieces of metal on my teeth


have to make up for it in style and grace



really dont think ill ever get a boyfriend with this

but this should not be my main concern in life

i guess im shallow like that


my friends are all dissapearing soon, travelling uni and such

ill be left behind for a year




but they will be jelouswhen i get to be wallowing about a student and they have to get jobs


to do list:

1. become renowned for my sense of style
2. perfect my hair
3. get thin
4. get tanned
5. get a boy to lust after me



i miss my old self



stability will come soon i hope

sad

theres photographic evidence of the last thing i want to see




fuck him


literally hate myself right now


not seen the massive dick in ages

not rating seeing him aat all





fuck fuck fuck fuck this

the cold

my hands can barely move

typing it much easier then writing though

this it the reasoning for not completing a maths paper even though i have an exam tomorrow



my bulimia is progressing at an alarming rate

sometimes i physically feel everything i eat must be vommed back up



barrrrrrr sugar puffs

i love god damn sugar puffs



i would love to live of a bowl of sugar puffs alone


magiccccccccccccc


im currently downloading the entire jigga back catalogue.
love him love him

i decided to become a whore. it works for the rest of my friends. being whorey and skanky. i need sex. i miss sex. it shouldnt be this hard for the young.


current obsession with platting my hair

it looks like a nest of dreams to be fairrrr,,

all boys must be gay


thinner then i have been in a while llikeee


gonna vom some more


hi ho.

howls moving castle

watched it to cheer me up to be fair it didnt work

with the epic depressing rain and freezing temperatures

im not aloud to put the heating on as its may

logical in these recesive times


staying in and wallowing

sarah silverman and my sister ffor company



could be worse.



rilo kiley speaks the truth . god bless jenny

i want it to be like last year again, i was much happier then


hi ho

how are you doing in economics

I had to look after my little sister for a mere hour today

and i soon realised i could never be a mother

i dont know why i bother eating at the moment

i always end up voming it up in the toilets later

wallow for a little bit then ignore my hunger for the rest of the day.

im trying to ignore him and forget his existance, but i cant help my need to be funny and interesting when he is in sight.

my battle to be thinner then her is won, has been from the start.

i want to go out tonight.

but everytime i do it drives my mum futher away from me.

its scary how she can effect every decision i make.

my friend should be picking me up soon, for a drive.

i cant stand being in a car with her.

if she sings or raps.

she thinks she is better then me

probably is but im more individual and she cant stand that

her pretention is what makes me hate her most.

i knew her when she was as plain as 'her'.

now she likes the smiths and considers her self unique.

when there is 10000000 people out there like her and when she goes to uni she will see this

until then i will have to put up with it

hi ho

hungry

i love jay-z

he is my actual hero



i mean im not the typical hip hop fan

i mostly like the early 90's era to be fair


it shocks most people when i tell them



i wish i found more people interesting
i hate it when my friend starts talking to people when were out
i could never be like that
she sees no problem in her overly friendly ways
and she really pisses me off when i confront her about anything
she gets defensive like i dont have the right to say anything




i hate him i hate him i hate him


hi ho

bordem and the need to vent

Im trying to revise,,

watching tv instead

no surprises there. ive seen this episode of the hills twenty times but it makes no difference

i like to relate it to my life, and i can.
but my one relationship which has caused me to become bitter before my time is something i shouldnt be thinking about

im making myself sick and i have no reason to
im happy with my weight

but im so fucked up i seeme to think if im thinner then her i am therefore better then her ##

this is infact not true, she probably is better then me.

i constantly call her plain, but whats wrong with that

we dont all need to be wonderous crazy people

im starting to think there was only one person in the entire world who found me attractive

and hes a dick





but what man isnt


im trying to put all my effort into exams

i want A's

want to go to uni and become an accountant

orrr work in american apparel

orr open a christian book shop

im not religious but i think it would be fun



hi ho